The H U S S L E 8 Blog "Junior Days"

Reflect Reflect

April 07, 2006

I decided to talk to myself today. Yes talk to myself. I mean, I will think about who I am.

Why all of a sudden? I just feel that I need to talk to myself. xD
I advice you, not to read this. Haha!
You don't have anything to do with this.
It's all about me. And me. And again, me.

I am kind, friendly, quiet, shy, introverted, secretive, bastard, mean, evil, competitive, playful, selfish and weird.

Quiet.
Yes I am. I just find myself at times out of something to say. Or simply because I love to watch people instead of talking to people.

Shy.
True. Even though I hate to admit it because I don't like being it. I am shy because there are things that makes me nervous at the start even though I have not yet tried to make a move. But when I am forced, it turns out to be weird and stupid. And that is so frustrating. Must get rid of this...

Introverted.
Quiet and shy may summarize it all.

Secretive.
I don't like sharing most of my thoughts to people. I keep it to myself. If example, I have an idea for our project, I think about it and imagine that our group will get high grades because of that! haha! But there are always consciousness in that thought. That is why, I end up forgetting it, not even trying to say it. Also, I am not that open. Haha! even to my mom. I keep this blog, and tell everything there. xD That makes me happy. I don't care if no one knows. As long as I know. Haha! But there are times that I want to share it, I say it to VERY limited people. And I will make those people DON'T tell a thing. Haha! That makes it sooooo secret. Haha!

Bastard.
Mainly at home! haha! I have not been any bastard outside home. Why I call myself bastard? Because I Yell. I glare. I command. I say "WHAT!?" so loud and accompany it with some evil glare. I command because I want to have a something, but not nessesary regarding objects because when mom says no, it's no. I hate that. But I don't argue. What I mean about 'I command' is that I say 'shut up' even to my mom. Haha! True. Also, 'alis' or 'layas' haha! To my brother, but he ends up owning me because of that fact he is way MORE bastard than me... I love being a bastard but it just gets me to trouble at times like being shout at in return. And that is so frustrating. haha!
But take note: I do this at home.

Mean and Evil.
Yes I get mean and evil from time to time. Doing all sorts of meaness and laughing my ass of because of a ridiculous act of someone. blehe

Competitive.
If I engage myself in a 'battle' of course I want to win. I don't want to know the fact that I lose. Specially to a kid. haha. I hate kids. If I loss, I say "It's okay..." But I think the opposite inside me. I should have done better. You are so lucky! And things like that. But the truth is that I am just not good at that. But it is not a habbit of mine to brag that I lost I lost it's unfair. Specially when it's just me. I say 'okay' haha. Even though It's not. I say what I think when there is a crowd that argue's about their lost and I'll join in.

Selfish.
Well sadly, yes. But I do give. I give and give and then time comes when it's just too exessive. I tend to stop giving instaead, give a very frustrating attitude. Or sometimes, when I have a.. for example. A new pack of Crayons! Yay! haha.. well this happens when I was a little kiddo. So I have that crayons. then you see it. You borrow it. I give it to you. But deep inside my heart, I am like, "OMG I hope you never saw me with my crayons!" but I just can't say no. I hate my attitude about being selfih. I feel so frustrated and annoyed. Being selfish sucks so much. Another something that I hate about myself... sheeeeeesh.

Playful. Of course. I love having fun.
Kind, Friendly.. yes. I know I am. xD
Weird. Yes. Certainly.

Other People: I like

I like people who are extroverts, noisy, fun and humourous.

Why? Because it's just so lovely when the person you are talking to is so noisy! The conversation goes on and on and that person tells numerous stories, not even bothering to stop even though all you do is nod.

I'm a quiet person so I need someone who can bring up a topic and make me think. If I go along with someone who is quiet as well, OMG the world will be so peaceful.

I love extroverts and I admire them because they are folks who are tells the truth and they express themselves as they want to express themselves. Unlike introverts who keeps feelings within them and later on... BOOM! I'm part of those introverts. I do go 'boom'. But I write about my sadness and loniness in a blog and that is just so helpful.

Fun and Humorous! Of couse who does not want people who are so funny and always give a rib tickler? I just adore their humor. Even pranksters! Haha. Do you know the show "Just for Laughs"? That show is awesome. I love the reaction of the people! Going O_O or >_< or T_T
haha!

Haaaaaaaaaaaay.
I want to be an extrovert myself.
I want! haha. But being one will loss silence. And I love silence.
And being an extrovert is hard. xD
You know why. If not, go figure.

Other People: Hate

I hate people when I feel like hating them. I have my reasons of hating people. Sometimes, it is because of some unwanted aura that I sense. I guess you know what I mean. Like people who look at you as if you're the one who will be responsible for the world's explosion.

The traits that I hate? Well it matters. I have different reasons.... so that answers all... for now... I think...

Perfect

First of all, this is my opinions.. Starting from this topic. LoL.

SEVERAL people are continuously saying

"Sorry I'm not perfect."

And it just get so overrated.

What do they mean by perfect anyway? Being GOOD? APPEALING? INTELLIGENT? FANTASTIC? ANGELIC?

No way.

No one is too good. Too appealing. Too intelligent. Too fantastic and too angelic. Everybody is mean and evil. They just can't admit it. That is why, why use the term 'perfect'.

If you tell something bad, like you flame a person. Then afterwards, say that 'oh i'm sorry i don't like you. i'm not perfect.' I don't understand why in the world you would say that? After telling the TRUTH that you actually, ex. hate the person? So by saying that you mean, you are engulfing all your words back to you? OMG. It's like you took away the reality.

I say someone who is perfect is someone who knows the truth and knows his reasons. Someone perfect is a person who commits mistakes and ACCEPT it if it's really acceptable. If not, he can prove he is right. Somone perfect is someone who is not afraid to tell the most evil thing in the world. Even if it will cause his death. At least he said the truth of his opinions. He will benefit HAPPINESS of expressing what he likes. He will end up without any regrets. In addition, he will have the freedom.

It takes time to admit wrongs. Wrongs are things to be ashamed at. Wrongs are so wrong. You can't help but hide. I do that.... I know you get the point. hehe..

So maybe..
Instead of saying "Sorry i'm not perfect just say... "Sorry, that's reality."

Why? Because when you say that "sorry i'm not perfect" sentence, You offend someone or simply, yourself.

Haha! Okay I told you it was long.
There are other topics in my mind, but I'll talk about it later.

This maybe the effect after reading a Psycology book that was bought in mistake. It's about the book "Blink". haha! I bought it in mistake thinking that it was a 'good book' but it turned out to be obviously, a psychology book. As I saw the word itself at the back. I can't believe it. haha! I also can't believe that I'm reading it. O_O

Later.

END - 8:28 a.m. -

Fantastic Four: Naruto Version

April 06, 2006

Haha. I'm bored. I want to draw something. I want my photoshop. I want to take a bath. I want to play. I want to talk. I want to watch! I want to do this and that and....

It will be April 31 sometime...
Then May will follow...
And then June... and then... SCHOOL!

I'm a junior already! nananana

Is that something to be happy about? O_o

Hehe..

Anyway, I did this thing.

Weee!
They are not yet complete.
But I'm too exited to place it here. LoL. So there.. haha!

I think Neji is the cutest, haha! If you don't know who he is, he is the GUY wearing 'shorts'.

Haha. When I showed Neji to my mom, she said "Wow that's a cute GIRL." Shit. LoL!

END - 12:35 p.m. -

Reklamadora

April 05, 2006

tae binura ng diaryland yung una kong post... punong puno pa naman ng galit...

Ayaw ko nang ulitin kung ano man yung una kong nalagay, kasi mahaba... at least nasabi ko, kahit sa sarili ko lang, nalabas ko yung inis ko...

So summary nalang muna...

"Naiinis ako kay mama"

Explanation naman...

Kasi palagi niyang sinasabi na malapit na siyang mamatay... tapos kapag magagalit siya, i-bbring up niya yung topic na may sakit siya... tapos sasabihin niya na pagod na siya... at isa pang panakot niya, di DAW niya ako i-eenroll....

Sinasabi ko naman sa kanya na tama na, ako nalang... mamaya-maya makikita ko siya nag wowork nanaman.

Kelan ba niya ako i-ttrust na magagawa ko ang isang bagay kahit na sinabi ko na "sandali lang may gagawin lagn ako" dahil hindi ko yun iiwanan kasi nag-promise na ako! Nakakainis yung ugali niya na ganun na mamaya maya siya na yung gumagawa ng choir na ako dapat... OC! nakakainis....

tapos mag rereklamo siya na pagod na siya and all those....

sabi ko sa kanya na wag na nga sinag mag work! mag pahinga nalang siya at manood ng tv araw araw at magpakasaya...

stress lang bibigay ng work...
stress at negative feelings... hay naku

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
MAMA!

umuwi ka na nga lang sa province ninyo at dun ka na tumira kung gusto mo talaga yun! kasi dun ka naman siguro sasaya at gagaling!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
MAMA!

ang drama ng buhay ni mama... nakakainis! dami niyang reklamo! hay naku... kung nabuhay lang ako ng mga... 5 years before 1990, siguro may work na ako at pinatigil ko na sa work si mama at ang pagagawa ko nalang sa kanya ay
MANOOD. MAG-RELAX. MATULOG. KUMAIN. MAGPAKASAYA!

BLEH!

END - 8:06 p.m. -

The Pixelled Kitchen: bleheheh

April 04, 2006

I feel that days go on so fast. O_O
It's like, I was just sitting here yesterday and now, I'm sitting here again. It's just so weird to find myself here again! haha... labo...

Anyway...

I hate it when other people are in our house. LoL! Why? Because I find them out of place specially if it's between me and that person alone. Because I don't talk that much. haha! I keep on minding what I like. I even forget to let that person eat. haha! She ended up eating by herself. When I told her, " C'mon let's eat. " She said " I'm done. " and my reaction was like O_O ( nanlaki ang mata! )

But even though, I continued with my business alone. Not even bothering to make a conversation with her. So she just hang out with the newspaper! LoL.

Anyway.
I have been doing this Pixel work ( pixel nanaman xD )

It's a kitchen! haha!
It's isometric. Meaning, whatever side, it will look the same. it's just a part of a house. I still don't know how to color it properly. What I like best about that kitchen is the refrigirator! haha!

That kitchen looks like...
It belongs to a couple that had just been married for sometime and they don't even have the money to buy themselves some plates and glasses and spoons plus forks... haha! Not to mention, CHAIRS! haha....

The background was the " night sky "
Not really night night, but there are stars. Oh that white specks are stars, if you are wondering xP

So there. haha!

Each time I pixel something like this, I remember one person: Sir Ganancial and his bleeding teeth!.
bwahahahaahahaha!

I'll try to Pixel another anime character. Which is... dunno >:)

//My Deviantart //

END - 8:47 p.m. -

I want this... no I meant that.... oh crap, now I like those!!

April 3, 2006

There are so many things that I want to do at this point. I want to make a website or two. XD

Furthermore, at this point, I am interested at learning Pixels. It's not as easy as you think. Speacially when you are using MS Paint only, the Pixels are really so small. >_< ( oh that freakin' photoshop, when will I get it? grrr ) Hence, making the objects Isometric is difficult. It's easier when you try drawing it on a graphing paper, but when it's the real thing, it's SO hard! >_<

I tried Pixelling a house.

I will upload it later when I get home. I'm in my father's office because I got my report card. Haha! I can't believe I got a B in Social as the final grade O_O

My lowest was the freakin' Math grade which was C and because of that, my mom is actually FORCING me to have summer lessons in ATENEO! OMG! I don't like to have summer lessons there?!?! DAMN! She said it will be in May and by that time she is telling me that I'm already refreshed. REFRESHED? OMG! WTF!? I told her any place but Ateneo. I don't know why. I just don't feel like having lessons in that place. lol. Now I have a big 'L' in my forehead. What am I going to doooooooooo? T_T

A 'C' in my report card will NOT, NEVER! EVER! happen in third year! I SWEAR! Whatever happens, I'll study!

And I'm not just going to say that. I will do it! That is why I'm getting all the opportunity this summer to be able to satisfy my 'Internet' needs because I am planning not to touch the computer if it's not important. I'm allowing myself during the weekends though.

Haha...
That is why, now you may understand. That I have been WANTING Photoshop so much because that Photoshop is such a precious tool when used at Webpage Designing.

I can also Pixel there! Yay!

Sooooo...
I'll just upload the 'house' I made. Later.

It's weird. O_o;; haha..

i like this
Look! I also Pixelled 'Neji' !! bleh!

weeee
I edited Neji's head and placed a body! Now look! haha! I love it! ^o^ Go Neji!

This is the first time I tried to Pixel an anime Character! Haha! ^_^ I used MS Paint to make that picture! Haha!

END - 3:15 p.m. -

Abril Uno: Katarantaduhan

April 01, 2006

Shoutout: Hello ako si "Ako" bwahahah

April fools day!

Sa Tagalog?

Abril Katarantaduhan! wahahaha...

Onti lang ata may alam na April fools day ngaun. Kasi ako, last year ko lang nalaman. Nung nanood ako ng "Eddie McDowd" sa Disney channel nalaman ko na importante ang April 1. Nalaman ko rin na ito ang araw ng katarantaduhan! Ibig sabihin, araw ng 'pranks'.

Kahit anong pranks.
Prank call, joke, fact... o kaya set-up. Kaya nga masaya eh! Kaso boring pa dito sa Pilipinas dahil sabi ko nga, parang onti lang ang may alam.

Nayong araw na 'to.
Wala namang gumawa sa akin ng katarantaduhan.

Ang nangyari lang, ay may isang "Uchiha Sasuke" na dumaan sa aking harapan. Oo tama, isang anime character, akalain ninyo... nabuhay! haha! Naglalagad kasi ako ng matino sa Ali Mall, eh bigla ba naman may nakita akong naka-costume. Haha! Kaya ko nalaman na may cosplay sa Ali Mall. Interestado nga ako eh, kaso kasama ko si mama, kaya tinamad na akong siyasatin ang lugar kung saan nagaganap ang cosplay.

Si mama ba naman ang kasama ko...
Yun pa! Makakita lang ng isang taong naka-costume.. "Ano? Bat ganyan?" di pa nga nakakaikot, "Alis na tayo! Ano ba naman dito!"

Haha...
Kaya yun, di na ako nakakita ng marami pang anime characters na nabuhay. Yun lang talagang "Uchiha Sasuke" na naligaw. Haha! Kaya siguro nawala ng tatlong taon sa konoha! haha! Naligaw! hahaha...

Hay
So iyon. Yun lang naman ang nakakawindang na pangyayari sa araw na ito.

Bye!

END - 7:24 p.m. -

Palitics

March 31, 2006

Shoutout: Lyza! haha

Wow. I like the weather. It's cold! haha
Is there any storm or something? Hrmm...

Anyway, I watched Debate last night because my mom was watching it and she does not like me to change the channel to Disney. haha! They were talking about "Charter Change". It's about changing the Philippine Government into a parliamentary one wherein they will remove the senate. haha! I don't really understand it.

I guess whatever they do about the system, nothing will happen if their minds are still the same. If they still own a corrupt mind, then changing the system won't do any good and everything will be the same. They must change their attitude first! I also can't understand people who protest against the Government. If they want the president down, who will replace her? The Ex-President Estrada? The dead FPJ? (pardon his soul T_T) Or they will have Snap Elections?

Oh well..
Even the people does not consider going deeper. Underneath the Underneath, bwahahaha...

Sigh.
Goodluck Philippines.

Anyway!

Haha... today was okay.
I woke up 1:30 lol

I started doodling and doodling till I decided to watch and watch...

And now I'm here.
Haha.

Well that thing happens daily.

LoL..

END - 7:15 p.m. -

Blank

March 30, 2006

Hoorah. Cleared up the page. O.O
Hehe.

Acctually thats all. O.o

Wow I'm back o.O
Just watched school of Rock! It's 9:00 now...
Blehehe...
The movie was awesome! And to think that I just watched it now...

I love the 10 year old Drummer! Then comes the lead guitarist! I love them both. BUt I liked the drummer more. xP

Sure was a great movie. ^_^

END - 3:11 p.m. -

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